In the year 2012...

So I will forewarn you... this isn't a feel-good entry but it is about something we all need to think about.
So, I was reading the paper today and there was an article about the year 2012... the end of the world. Go ahead, just google it. As I was reading it is talked about solar flare ups, Eros, Myan calendars, and God all resulting in the end, and that is only five years away. Scary stuff!! But as I read all of this stuff I got a lump in my throat, I didn't think about myself but I was terrified for Bug. Can I save her? Can I keep her from getting hurt? Can I love her enough between now and the end to make all of the bad go away? I want to run home with her and hold her and love her and never let her go!
I know, it is almost silly the way I am going on. But then I realized... I don't know when the end will ever be. I told you, up lifting stuff! So, I am making a promise today to stop being so angry and cynical, to be more kind and compassionate. To show her love and how to be a good person not by my words but by my actions. I want her to be a better person than I could ever be.
"If tomorrow never comes, will she know how much I loved her. Did I try in every way to show her every day just how much I loved her. And if my time on earth were through and she had to face this world without me, is the love I gave her in the past going to be enough to last, if tomorrow never comes... " -Garth Brooks "If Tomorrow Never Comes"

Don't hate V-day, make it Me-day...

With Valentine's Day right around the corner (as if you couldn't figure it out with all of the store displays, heck, I even got a list of names from daycare so Bug could give everyone valentines) I have a chance to reflect. Sure, I could take the easy and cynical way out... Boo men and blare "Love Stinks" in the car and who could blame me, but I won't (ok, maybe once but I will never admit it!). Instead, I have a challenge for you... Sure embrace the ones you love (you should be doing that every day anyway) and make a point to tell them what they mean to you but also do the same for yourself.
Remind yourself that you are beautiful. Tell yourself that yes, you can do it whether it is dealing with that mean coworker or just making it through the night with a sick child. Encourage yourself to do something outside of your comfort zone. When you go to get in the shower, check yourself out! Look at the good and stop focusing on the bad (it only brings you down) so what if you used to be a size 4 back in the day and now you aren't... admire your flaws and embrace your scars, they made you who you are today. Most of all, don't ever forget who you are.
So next week, hug your hubby, love your lover, kiss your kids but don't forget about you because if you don't love yourself, who will?